Madam Lil's Emporium

I am sooooo tired I can hardly keep my eyes open. I'm sitting in Starbucks at Eglinton and Holly waiting for Matt to come and meet me after work. I've been here for about an hour and a half just playing on the internet and drinking an almond soy latte. I'm regretting the half-caf - I should've just had full caf. Oh well. This is day one of my five days off work, tomorrow I can have a long lie (today I had to get up to go to my psychiatrist appointment which was bad as Tracy and I had been out until 2am....).

I've to try increasing my dosage on Wellbutrin to see if that helps me with the motivation/procrastination/impulsivity etc. The dose I'm on now works, I'm a lot better that I used to be but I could be better so we're seeing how the increased dosage works. I had to get a letter from my doctor to explain that lateness is a symptom of ADD. How much like a 12 year old school girl do I feel?!

I wish Matt would get here so I could go and get some more coffee (what d'you mean I'm not allowed caffeine?!), I don't want to leave my laptop, iPod et al unattended in the back of a coffee shop near the washrooms.

I had a thought today when I was in the cab on my way back from Dominion at 2am. I often have weird thoughts and this was no exception. I was thinking about the security cameras in the back of all cabs, which made me think about who sees the photos, which made me wonder how ugly I looked in them, which made me wonder if you could request that your photo not be taken, which made me wonder about the Amish because they believe that photographs steal your soul, which made me wonder what they would do in a cab because it would steal their souls but there was no way for it not to happen. Then I realised that Amish people didn't take cabs, they eschew technology. Then I stopped wondering.

night night

Hmmmm....it's almost 4.30am. I should be asleep yet I am WIDE awake. Well, i am and I'm not, if that makes sense. I'm tired and yawning yet still very much alert and mentally active. This is weird because today was the day from hell, oh yes. FROM HELL! Two person deployment with a line up OUT of the door for almost 2 solid hours. We didn't get to bus the cafe for over 2 hours. It was a nightmare. I can't decide if my favourite part was when i realised the espresso hoppers were empty and i reached into the espresso cubby to found it empty or when the guy came up and ordered a coffee traveller? Or maybe it was when I had 8 drinks lined up, all of which wanted different liquids at different temperatures? WTF?!

So, yes, bad day.

But then I went out for a beer with Chris so I felt happy again. I've missed seeing him often and I can't wait to work with him again!! Yay!!

I'd also forgotten how much fun alcohol is, especially when you're on 3 different prescription drugs which are all contraindicated with alcohol.....and all you've had to eat that day is a bowl of cereal and a wholewheat raspberry scone....

ho hum.

anyway, i should try to sleep i guess. before i find something else to do.

g'night.

It's fecking hard to publish a website when you have absolutely no idea what you're doing!!! I've managed to upload it all but it can't be seen due to some stupid webhost page. Apparently I've got to overwrite the index.html! ???!!!! er, what?

And I have to go to work soon. And I can't be late. So I'm going to give it one last try.....

So, I spent hours creating this website (at the same time as mending some clothes and talking on msn messenger - yay for multi-tasking!), it was all starting to look purty and nice and then stupid RapidWeaver closed and I lost everything. There were some choice words coming out of my mouth, let me tell you!! Words like 'goodness' and 'by golly' and 'goshdarnit'. It was enough to make a vicar blush!

Now it's 4am, and I need to get some sleep as tomorrow is the first of many days of work. Still, I do have five days off next week! HUZZAH!!!